Sorry I’m not good at this:

Soo…. I guess I should just first explain why I don’t post for so long and then I’ll post a lot so no one is home right now and I can kind of freely talk and have it type for me I think that’s better so I get really high and I decide to post everything and tell the world about myself and my circumstances and then I come down a little bit and then I completely like say that’s a horrible f****** idea but I’m going to do it anyways cuz I’m really high

Just so we’re clear—– the poisoning episode was not a hallucination or paranoia—-+-+ I actually will post some pictures for you to see, in case there are any doctors or med student who want to weigh in😊 if not and you wanna say I’m fucking crazy, that’s cool too. Those kind of comments don’t hurt at all

I can make fun of myself like a mockerfuther—– sometimes that’s all we have to get through it, right?

Anyways…. I know if I dont post all this shit right now I won’t….. so if you’re ready for what was really going on in the month of April… Here ya go…

And I swear to you , I do know where my crisis center is and have been already when all this was going on. So I promise I’m all good.

but I have researched and I’m going to get a Toxicology test done on my hair in the next month or so—– specifically for heavy metals and then I will deal with whatever the test says:::: and figure out how to address that, ESPECIALLY if it happens again…….

now I’m doing fine…not 100% physically-++ I’m still really tired, like need to lay down and rest. I have a sinus infection or something but am gonna try to wait till next week to get checked.

HOWEVER—& I’m working again$$$$$ of course don’t we all need like an extra 5k…..

so that’s awesome and I’m going to have a summer job, so GREAT things are happening.

Like I said before…. I was a little tightly wounda few weeks ago, but it was an acute awareness of self. Anyway I good now…. On the surface.

Here we go… And I alternate between wanting to share fucking EVERY THING…. To knowing that no one really gives a shit…. ALRIGHT….. I’m high enough— I’m fucking jumping OFF that cliff. 👏👁️

These are all journal entries from my phone. 😤😱😈